What no one told me (originally published late 2021)

No one told me

there would be so many wires

tangled wires

to drivers

to drips

and drugs

to my love

Precarious wires

that so easily disconnect

seperate us

Nobody told me

It would be the stairs

That defeated you

The stairs

that also finish me off daily

So many forgotten things

are down the stairs

sugar, tablets, my phone, a drop of extra milk,

our old familiar life ...

just as I get to the top

The doorbell rings

I descend

to let the angels sweep in

Blue uniformed

scouse sistas

Wisdom holders

Grounded goddesses

Soothing soothsayers

who never seem to have a day off

They fix

The tangled wires

and soothe the raw

of the night before

I cry in the garden

Out of earshot

Salt Water

the flowers

No one told me

I was strong as the fucking sea

Clare Jasmine Beloved

written Aug 2nd 2021

A Beloved Grief … diary entries and writing by Clare Jasmine Beloved after the death of her wife, Sandra Richardson from metastatic secondary breast cancer.

You can find other writings from Clare about grief and loss here

Links to Secondary Breast Cancer charities we support https://www.secondary1st.org.uk and https://www.make2ndscount.co.uk Macmillan Cancer Support Helpline : 0808 808 00 00. Marie Curie support and info : https://www.mariecurie.org.uk

Sandra Richardson REST IN POWER & POETRY 13.2.64 - 25.8.21

Originally published late 2021